I just love when the flowers start blooming. It came at a particularly good time because it provided just the right amount of hope for me. This year has been hard on me and it has been hard for me to see the good in things. Spring is good for reminding people that because it means that new growth is starting and the earth is coming back to life.
Also its spring when Easter finally happens. Easter in itself is enough to give hope because of my belief in God and what he did. He died, for my sins, in one of the most painful way possible and then he rose from the dead three days later. Its remarkably amazing and gives hope and is really helping me to work through these hard days and that there is something more than just what happens on earth. No matter what we suffer through he is there with us.
These two words rule my way of thinking. I think that I must put out the best work I can do so that I can accomplish what I want but that picture I have in my head is so high and perfect that I never end up starting said project.
This brings me to the pressure part. Wanting everything to be perfect puts me under so much pressure that I never even start and then the deadline looms closer and closer and then I eventually start. I say that I work better under pressure but is it true or I am just rationalizing my procrastination? This is the current dilemma I am in with so many of my deadlines not limited to my senior thesis and the many places I am applying.
So in the meantime I am going to work on said project before my family gets here for family day and we go to Deeproots,