I have been basically burning both ends of the candle and still getting to what seems no where. This has been one of my hardest years medically for me and I have had to put so much on hold because of it. I just feel like I always get what I want but it’s later than I would like and always way after everyone else. 

Right now I am currently writing this from my phone in bed and having to skip going to catholic camp because I feel like hell and am tired. So I’m not doing what I want to do. Not at all. 
If It were up to me and I was feeling better I would have more posts in the works , applying to more jobs, doing a bible study before I woke up and learning how to drive now that I finally got a car. But no instead I’m in my bed wiped out and frustrated because I can’t do what I want because of medical reasons. 
The worst part is that nothing anyone can do can help. I’ve been a grouch for the past two weeks since this happened and it annoys me. I annoy myself. That is te worst feeling ever. 
So I guess that’s the end of my rant but really the worst thing to tell someone who doesn’t feel great and doesn’t know why is all the stuff she knows she should be doing. It doesn’t help. I’m gonna end there and try to read or just go to sleep. I prefer the first choice but lately even that is hard. 
I had actually started running and working out again and enjoyed it a lot. I also have a new bow that I have been dying to try out. But I haven’t had the energy which is annoying.